The last day of the year and I had so many things to do, write a new article in the blog, clean the apartment and other house work etc. However, as always in times when I need to do so many things, my daughter wouldn’t let me. She never wants to sleep when I start to do something.
Finally we both fell asleep together for just half an hour but when I woke up I had this terrible feeling. Like I’m falling into another reality and waking up from death. This started to happen to me since giving birth. I have so strange sleeping and I feel so uncomfortable about it but there is nothing I can do about it.
Anyway My husband came home early today and told me he’d be with me for the New year. Well he finally fell asleep because he was tired. To be honest before he fell asleep, he helped me to make our daughter sleep because she was screaming so much but she’s taken a chill in his arms. Simply Daddy’s girl.
Well… it’s midnight right now and everybody’s asleep.. and I’m all alone, and I’m feeling kind of sad. Happy new year to me! I don’t want to sleep so I will watch a few movies, make some hot chocolate and eat some bread with fried potatoes.
I’m just feeling so sensitive now, I feel alone so I’ve been crying for a while as well. Luckily my friend “Michaela” is online so I can talk to her for a while. If my daughter gets up I’ll go feed her and then hope together we’ll sleep till morning.
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